I am very thankful for the retreat in the winterly Allgau. The last day something precious revealed. In the beginning I was a bit insecure because resistance was coming up against remaining silent - that was new for me. Then I realized that the point is simply: not MY will shall be but Gods will. It is the contumacy against it, which is taking away strength and peace. That became very obvious. At the same time something loosened in me and I was very touched. Your absolute devotion to THAT is also touching me again and again. I am so aware what a blessing it is being allowed to be so close to you, dearest Master. Please forgive me that I sometimes do not understand what you mean, when it is not exactly explained, when it is intellectually not understandable. But also here I was allowed to experience a "being in peace with it" in Satsang. That is just the way this body-mind is functioning, it is good like this.
Full of thankfulness and love
Sudira
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